I try to keep my blog upbeat but I’m going to tell it like it is today rather than not writing. I had to buy these crutches as my hip has started causing such intense pain that I need to keep my weight off it until I see the consultant next week. The treatment I was supposed to have was delayed due to my hand. I’m currently limping about the house yelping occasionally when it catches. This sound is quite extreme and animal-like but I can’t actually control it.
It’s difficult to process this intense new pain given what I’ve just been through with my hand. Over the past two years I’ve experienced more pain than I have in my entire life and I seem to be struggling to escape from it.
I did a quick bit of research on the subject of how pain affects our bodies and minds. It isn’t good – prolonged pain can cause increased heart and breathing rates and muscle tension leading to other complications. Psychologically it can be carnage. I’m trying not to think about it – need to hold tight, look forward and deal with it. I may spend my first festival on crutches but I’ll face that when it happens.