Circuit meltdown

Today my brain feels like an overloaded, malfunctioning circuit board with too many active pathways. I nearly had a circuit meltdown this afternoon and felt I was about to give up on the day. I managed to calm down, reel myself back in and focus (thankfully). Things are so intense at the moment that I don’t know where I’m at half the time. I keep making to do lists as it helps me keep on track. 

The consultant called about my hand on Friday and advised that I need an operation in the New Year with two consultants present due to the complexity of the situation. They would repair the ligament in my hand for the second time and also take a biopsy to confirm there’s no longer infection. I had a good cry about it on Friday night as it wasn’t what I’d hoped to hear. I was hoping they could just sign the infection off but a biopsy means they will need to go into the bone marrow which isn’t great and carries risks. I’ll need to decide what I want to do over the holidays. Hopefully I can find some thinking space over the next few weeks. 

I’m trying to get organised for Christmas and still making shopping lists and wondering how and when I’m going to buy things. I failed to organise a shopping slot so I’ll have to join the foray at the supermarket in the next few days. 

We also just went from Tier 2 to 4 in just over 48 hours. I respect the need for this but it has made Christmas a bit of a moving target with our plans continually changing to accommodate the different rules. It takes up so much brain energy and organisation, particularly with the children and the family.

Then there’s my lovely Privvi which is so important but had to take a bit of a back seat this weekend. There’s still plenty to do over the next couple of weeks and I’m working towards a website launch on the 4th January. I need to do more promotion which I find hard as I’m not great with social media. Bit of a steep learning curve. I’ll just get there bit by bit.

Published by AnnaH

My name's Anna and I decided to write a blog following an accident last year. I will never regain the full use of my right hand and an operation led to additional, ongoing complications. This is about my struggles following the accident and the challenges of trying to save the use I still have in my hand. It’s a story about my product and why it appeared in my head one day because of my traumatic experiences. How I took that positive vision and worked towards bringing it to life. The challenges of putting it together and getting it to the market whilst still undergoing debilitating, ongoing treatment. It's a journey you can share with me. I'm not there yet...

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