I’ve always had an issue with public loos. Apparently my father was the same and very particular about hygiene (my parents divorced early on so I didn’t really see him). Must be a gene!
I’ve never really stopped and considered what it is exactly that bothers me about toilets. It’s probably fairly instinctive for most of us to be slightly wary, particularly about certain smells. It’s a natural warning that there may be germs lurking. I think the smells heighten my anxiety and I definitely feel calmer in a clean, odour-free loo.
It’s not that I panic in a toilet. It doesn’t worry me to that extent but it’s more that I feel in a state of alert and even more so with Covid. So rather that it being something that just happens as a matter of course, it’s something that I engage in because I am very wary of it.
For me it starts before I’m even in the toilet, with the door handle. I never touch a door handle and I’ll use my sleeve, coat, a tissue or anything else I can, to avoid this. In the unfortunate event that I do need to touch the handle, I’ll use lavish amounts of hand gel afterwards.
I’ll talk more about toilets tomorrow. I’m wondering if it’s just me. I’m hoping not!